Saturday, December 29, 2012

Starting Over...Again

Well, here I am, bigger than my biggest. I lost weight. I looked great. I felt fab. And then I quit trying. I gained it all back in 4 short months and then some.

Sigh. Does this mean I am not cut out for low carb in the long run? I don't know. What I do know is that I'm unhappy and really disappointed in myself.

I have to start over and I'm now doubting myself. I guess this time I should start slower, 1 small step a week. Sigh.

Here I go again.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Let's be honest

Ok, if I'm being honest, I've gained back just about all the weight I lost. By July, I had lost nearly 30 pounds and I won't lie, I loved how I looked.

I made it to my sister's wedding and I looked good in my dress. I looked great in every new dress I bought for the handful of weddings in my family and all the parties leading up to my sister's wedding.

But then I lost my motivation and I quit trying and I gained it back. And I'm not happy with myself. But it is what it is.

Losing weight is hard. Keeping it off is really, really hard. I haven't mastered that yet. So, here I am, bigger, unhappy with myself for giving up and really wishing I could lose it all again and then some.

But let's be honest...it's not that easy! I'm willing to give it another shot. So we will see what happens.